Fangirling Over U-KISS

joonaheesa:

❝29.06.1994❞

❣Happy 18th Birthday, to UKISS’ baby, Dongho❥

Excuse the long-ass birthday message. All my feels.

According to Korean age, you’re 19 but still. That’s not the point. You’re finally legal \o/ LOL, I kid. You started when you were only 13/14, and you were so innocent and tiny. Look at you now, so mature - not really. You’re still forever young at heart (: - and so handsome now. You’ve gotten manlier too. Seriously, when you were 14, omg you were so pretty I just— I was so freaking jealous of you okei. I mean, you’re still pretty now, but your manly features have outgrown the baby, pretty, girlish ones. 

The first time I saw you, I remember asking my sister if you were a member in MBLAQ. xD Then I started searching and when I found out you’re my age, I flipped tables OTL. My god, it’s so unfair that you’re my age, and yet you live so far away from me ;A; nu you must live here and be my best friend LOL. /delusional fangirl mode: on/ 

But honestly speaking, if you were living in Singapore, I’m very certain you’ll end up in the same course as me. I’m not even joking. We might even be in the same class. So that’s why, it’s so freaking unfair you’re Korean lololol.

Anyway, I’m just really amazed at how you handle teenage stress so smoothly. Although you’re an idol (one in a country with really high expectations on idols), with dance training, vocal training, performances, shows, etc, you’re still schooling, and is still going through puberty. When I was 14, I only remember being so fucking emo and depressed. It’s incredible how you manage your teenage, work, and school stress well. I remember you tweeted something like, “Nobody understands me” and I feel you at that time. It was 2 years ago, if I’m not wrong. It’s totally understandable why you would tweet that because if I were in your shoes, I’d have died. I cannot handle the stress I’d be put under. And because of that, you became my inspiration and motivation to work hard in school and achieve what I want to achieve, and that my bad days aren’t the worst. There is more that life has prepared for me; either to break me down, or to get me high up. Especially with the tough times UKISS has gone through, and is still going through, you never ever gave up. And I love your attitude towards it. You just, you never show any signs of defeat or giving up or those negative things. When you cried on Star King, I felt like, that day was your breaking point. Like, I was watching someone exceeding his limits, his human limits as a person and has to break down in order to move on and “unbottle” the pent up emotions. You’re truly inspiring for your age. 

Plus, you remind me of myself sometimes. Like, we have the same interests, likes, and dislikes. It’s like we have the same frequency, but that’s probably because we’re the same age /shrugs/ 

When UKISS came to Singapore, I was so excited to meet you and talk to you. But we were told that fans could only get one signature, and I got Kibum’s. But you were there next to him, and because it was my first time meeting idols, and my very first time meeting you, I could only utter “DONGHO! I LOVE YOU” and wave like a retard. But omg, I was going craycray when you replied back “I love you too~” waved back, and gave me that eye-smile. Omfg, my delusional fangirl self just went to heaven that day. No kidding. 

But if I ever get to meet you again some day, I’d want to be able to tell you how much you’ve helped me in my life by literally being my role model. Although you’re my age. I don’t know. My life story isn’t the best, but I do appreciate it. Thank god I was watching tv that day. 

So, I hope you have a blast! Fans from around the world will wish you, and I’ll just be “another one of those fans”. But it’s okay. I don’t even know why I’m writing this here when writing this out as a fanletter is way better but I just feel like it. Lmao. 

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY FOREVER ULTIMATE BIAS AND MY BB AND MY ALTER EGO AND MY EVERYTHING. LOL SHIN DONGHO~ ❤❤